Archive for April, 2011


 I’ve tried to minimize the list of things that I would really like to have and I did want those Alexander Wang Anabela boots but I don’t think they will look good on me because of my stupid face so that’s out of the picture but it’s sad because they were gorgeous and 5 1/2 inches which would make me like 6’2”!! But on a lighter note, at least I won’t spend too much now I guess :/

So, the dilemna of what bag I should get and which one would look better on me.

See, the thing is I really love the Cambridge satchel because of the color and how vibrant it would be in real life, but I also love this Wang bag because I don’t think it’s too “fem” and it’s really edgy and casual that I can have a lot of uses for. But on the downside I don’t know if it kind of looks like a gym duffle bag but IDK, I get crazy ideas about things.

And with the Cambridge satchel, I already have one in black and it doesn’t really fit much, is that a sign?? UGHHH it’s just that the color is soooo beautiful I feel like I should get it. Crap, if I’m thinking too much about a product does that mean that I shouldn;t get either? What is the voice in my head telling me I should do? The pink or the Wang? To be or not to be?



B.D.D. (Body Dysmorphic Disorder) aka “imagined ugliness” is something a lot of people I know think I have, even I did for the longest time but I realized that to me, it really ISN’T imaginary. With my bodily proportions, it’s not up to par having a wide face and a big forehead and having a really slim figure makes me look like I’m from another planet. But thankfully after the past few months, thanks to something ;) I am just concerned with my forehead right now. It needs to be lowered 2 1/2 cm, which means I want to get a hairline reduction.

Getting a hairline reduction would make me so much more better looking because smaller foreheads just look more attractive. I mean, especially when it comes to hairstyles and changing the way you look with hair, having a smaller forehead helps sooooo much more because then you can pull off so many more hairstyles without looking like a creep which I know I would look like if I tried to pull off those gorgeous looks that only beautiful people werar so well :( lol.

Unfortunately the price for the surgery is $7000 and an additinal $2000 to $3000 for anasthesia and hospital bills which makes me wonder, why can’t I win the lottery? :D

I wonder, if everyone got the oppurtunity to be able to do one cosmetic procedure for free, what would they get? It would really let you see that person at a different angle. Obvisously everyone wants to be beaustiful and it REALLY is a harsh world put there that really judge you on the outside. It makes me wonder and question when people say that that’s not true and that “oh not everyone is like that” then why do we have magazines?ads? makeup? expensive clothes and houses? People in this world really do believe that money and looks equal power which I totally see, even on the bus. But some people are so desperate to get that “respect” it’s depressing to see. “So what? Are you trying to look great with that Louis Vuitton Speedy that everyone has and those juicy couture pants you paid 300 bucks for when some sweatshop child made it for 3 cents? HMMM ”

On that note, I’ve been contemplating whether I should get a Cambridge Satchel in fluorescent pink or Alexander Wang Anabela boots which are amazing and 5 1/2 inches :DDDDDD

I think a lot of people will go for the shoes so I’m still thinking but I think I would rather get these then the same bag that I already have but just in a really racket but adorable color.


I freaakiinn love the comedy “Frasier”. I don’t remember when I first watched in but I know it was during the summer after my freshman year or sophmore year. I love staying indoors whenever I get the chance so flipping through the channels when I was a youngin’, it was always “Golden Girls”, “Frasier”, and “Will and Grace”. I was a “Lifetime” lover growing up in my early teens hhahahaha. When I first started watching “Frasier” right away I was fully amused and became addicited to the amazing writing in each episode. I was a bit hesitant in the beginning because I thought it was one of those stuck up, got to be really smart to understand shows, but that’s just a sheer cover up on realy funny down to earth, almost poking fun at the people who are considered the “elite”.

The humor is just soo perfect, the writing and the scripts really made the show that it was. If it wasn’t for the writing, I’m sure it would not last for how many was it, 11 seasons? I know that the character Frasier Crane was originally in the sitcom “Cheers” for a lot of the series but I never liked that show and after watching tid bits of it, it never interested me to watch a full episode to see more of a background for Frasier. I think the one thing that I hated in the early seasons of “Frasier” was Kelsey Grammar’s hair lol. He had a sort of long curly mullet and he was already going bald, it was just so awkward seeing that hairstyle. I don’t know if that was the style in the 90s but GAWDD it was soooo ugly, I was so happy the season where he got it cut and he looked sooo much better.

I love Kelsey Grammar and being able to play a character for 20 years is really amazingg, or just out of pure luck. I think a lot of people hate his acting and think he is soo over the top but I think that’s what “Frasier Crane” is and I think he did an excellent job with the character and actually managed to not change it at all for over a decade.

Goodnight Seattle! <3


I DDIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD when I saw these Cambridge Satchels, I am a sucker for FLUORESCENT colors and the twist of using that kind of color with a classic school bag is a match made in heaven for me. I have this bag in black because it’s more for everyday and such, but I really, really want one… or two of these gorgeous leather satchels. I’m thinking of either the green or the pink one, or both!!!! :O I thought the orange might look too much like a traffic cone and the yellow one just looked kind of radioactive and really blinding so I’m going to avoid that one.

It would beeee soooo cute if I wore all black and I wore the green or pink one because it is really just a fabulous pop of color, it could make anyone smile. The price isn’t  that bad but if you get more than one, then.. yeah :p On the Cambridge Satchel Company website, the 14” bags which I also have in black, are 105 GBP, so it sums up to $169. But the really killer is the shipping, 16 GBP :( That’s why I was thinking if I should get two because then shipping for both would only be 20 GBP and it would be cheaper if I bought one now and one later. I really hate that there are so many material things thta I need to get!! AHHHH BALLLSS


I know that I am superrr late on this trend or cult obsession, whatever, but I watched “Rupaul’s Drag Race for the first time and I must say, addicting, addicting, addicting. Talk about amazing hot messes and ANTM giving birth to this television show but I must say it is THE reality show that upfronts the others. I’ve been a fan of Rupaul when I was a youngin’ so I was pretty happy to see that she is still FEIRRRRRRRRRCCCCEEEE!!!

The competetion to be the next drag superstar is here and it is eating up the ratings. As a fellow member of the queer community I don’t think I have ever been this proud. I’m glad that the media is slowly but surely exposing the world of queer culture and broadening the openmindness this society needs.

A mix of “Project Runway” and “ANTM”, a fresh new show has taken over televisions and iPhones everywhere. I must say I hope Alexis Matteo wins. Raja just looks like a dude even in makeup, he’s just too handsome I guess. Alexis has the personality and the charm and the sweer humbleness that America’s next drag superstar should have. But a friend told me that raja won, but it’s sucha  shame. He already had his 15 minutes of fame being a makeup artist on “America’s Next Top Model”, and by the way, he’s 36 years old, that to me is really old, that’s like twice my age, but whatever, at least some of the other contestants that I didn’t like win, so.. it’s cool