Archive for November, 2010


CROWDS CROWDS CROWDS. I am SOOOOOO uncomfortable being in a space where they’re are so many people, just not my thing. I wanted to get new bedding, but I don’t have to wake up at 4am to get a one just because it’s a good deal. I wanted to get some TV seasons on DVD but I didn’t really need them.

I’M Glad I avoided the whole hot mess today by staying a t home because as a matter of fact, I am OBSESSED with BURBERRY and Ebay has such good deals it makes me crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

I realize that everything I like is never on sale and that’s why I love Ebay, it’s amazingg. I’m catching myself buying more “formal” clothes which is so ironic because I would never wear suits or any of that matter. I still wont really wear super formal clothes but I got a wonderful piece of clothing the other day and now I want some button up shirts, like lavendar and gray. And I’m obsessed with getting a burberry coat from JAPAN.

This is how I like to shop, not pressured, not forced, not feeling like I need to buy stupid things i don’t need.



It has been 1 month and 3 weeks since my surgery and I still have over 2 months left until my face completely goes down. Now I’m not an addictive person even though this may sound like it but I want more procedures done. My face was always the big main focus of my personal torment but I would like to get a hairline reduction.

I’m not going to get one antime soon though because it costs $8000 and I nor anyone I know has the money for it. :( I really need to marry rich or find someone to live with who is freakin moneyyyyyy.

UGHH, plastic surgery shouldn’t cost so much, everyone has something they would like to change about themselves and in should be financially available to everyone.

PLASTIC SURGERY gives you what you were supposed to be born with.

The second procedure and probably the last one I want is a nose job. I like the shape of my nose but I don’t like that my nostrils show and the bump on my nose could be shaved but I might keep it.

UGHH I hate my huge forehead I really want it gone gone gone!!!!

ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL, I wish I was this gorgeous


Since I’m going to start USF on January 24th of 2011, I decided I need a new look, a breath of fresh air. My room should be somewhere I can go to think and relax and it needs a new vibe. I’m planning on painting my room gray, not like a cave but a nice light gray that would make my room more relaxed. I know, gray sounds moody and “gothic” whatever that means but I’m going for something like this:

I went to IKEA the other day and I bought some dark gray curtains, fitted sheets, a cute, little chandelier, wooden hangers,  a hook rack, and a garbage can. I’m trying to go for an older look for myself because then it will seem timeless, or trying to be.

I still need to buy new bedding which I did earlier this week but I decided to return it since it was ridiculously expensive, 130 GBP or $213 just for a duvet cover, three pillowcases, and a throw pillow. I mean it was designed by Kylie Minogue, haha I know but it was actually very chic, I was really sad to cancel my order.

As beautiful as it is, it’s just way too expensive, I might as well just go to ROSS, at least it’s really cheap there and I can probably get a lamp too which is another thing that I need.

To add to my new look, I really want either an iPad or an iTouch for Christmas. It will be like my little mini TV when I want to watch ANTM CYCLE 15 which is my favorite season and the only season I would buy. There’s one girl Ann, who’s 6’2” and she’s awkward and gorgeous. I have never felt so much adoration for a girl ever. I actually had dreams where I was her friend and I seriously would go straight  for her in a heartbeat.


Dearest Readers,

I know it has been a while since you’ve heard from me, and this will be the last you hear from me on this blog. I love the time I’ve spent with Youthline Media and now the time is right for me to move on to other things. I am now serving as a Queer Educator at Lyric and will continue to work with transgender and queer youth, something I’ve written a lot about here.

You can find me on my tumblr if you wish.

Big kiss for Youthline Media.

♥ ♥


My new favorite obsession and televison show SKINS, came from the BBC London into my heart, oh I love you !!

The thing that got my attention with this series was that it is like a run-down, teenage waste version of Gossip Girl which I love because it makes the whole show down to Earth, believable, and relatable all at the same time. It’s that comfort zone for teen angst everywhere and the story lines and writing are genius.

Series One and Two focuses on a group of British teens tries to grow up and learn about love and life with little adult supervision (And lots of PARTYING). Sid tries to be everyone’s friend and usually ends up on the short end of the stick. He is mostly manipulated by best friend Tony, whose girlfriend Michelle he is in love with. Tony is one to try anything once, including every girl he meets. He manipulates not only Sid and Michelle but anyone else who will let him. Anwar is just looking to lose his virginity. Maxxie is along for the ride and dealing with his homosexuality. Cassie is in love with Sid but has some mental issues. The parents are trying to grow up too and the teachers are being their friends and lovers so they only have each other