I’m very confused and very sad that TV is yes, sucking, it sucks more than the suckiest sucky thing. I’ve hardly been watching TV lately anyway because I’ve been busy doing other things I don’t have time. I mean now that it’s summer, I enjoy my daily LIFETIME dose of “Will and Grace”, “Frasier”, and “Desperate Housewives.” It’s sort of my morning fix to get me through the day. But anyway, I was browsing through the channels and I fell upon a new VH1 show called, “You’re Cut Off.” I was so damn upset of the fact that holy shit, another fake, scripted show about stupid ugly, blonde, whores making hot messes out of themselves??? Like really, people still like that shit?? I mean, that was SOOOO 2006!!

American going through phases of reality shows, is like a teenager having lots of sex and catching chlamydia. You would think after all the “Flavor of Loves” and “Rock Of Loves” people would be sick of seeing fat bimbos shaking thier plastic surgery faes and pulling weaves from all types of animals.

I think The one thing that makes me upset about reality shows the most is when the really, really, ugly people think they’re the hottest shit and God’s gift to the world. Like really???? Acting tough and saying that they are th most gorgeous things in the world puzzle me because it makes me think, are they mentally handicapped?? How do they see themselves and “beautful” when they have thighs filled with lard and horse radish?  Faces with wrinkles more than and 85 year old v****** and boobs the size of gravity air bags installed in SUVs. I just it confuses me and pisses me off that people like that exist.

I was already fed up with my Super Sweet Sixteen. Are all reality shows about whiny, spoiled b***** because it’s entertaining to viewers? Maybe it’s because they’re such hot messes that those shows are actually hidden messages telling us to be grateful that we’re not them. That OMG I’m so happy I’m not  a hot mess like that slut on TV. I think reality shows may be sending this kind of positive message that teaches us a lesson from ugly, hos who think they’re the best thing created in the wold when in fact, when you breath near them you contract gonorrhea.


I would like to…

I would like to highlight and celebrate two of my favorite muses of the moment.


Alice Glass is one of those “I don’t give a crap about how I look” type of people who somehow look good all the time no matter what. Even when her black eye makeup’s all over the place, sweat everywhere from performing, she STILL looks good. She is in the band Crystal Castles. Their type of music is one that either someone loves to a cult-ish degree OR hates with all their heart. I love it, I’m not sure about to the cult-ish degree because SOME of their songs annoy me, but others I repeat again and again.


Patti is so stylish. For me, it’s really apparent whether someone is naturally stylish when I see photos of that person unclothed. Iggy Pop is stylish even when he’s not wearing a shirt; Patti, the same. It’s this natural energy that exudes from the person. It’s the reason why she looks so cool in ANYTHING.





A whole tumblr dedicated to male models mmmmmmmmmmmmm :D It’s a shame though. You would think that like almost all of them are gay but no, thats a myth :( a lot of them are actually straight which is justt sooooo dissapointing. But there is hope, some of them could may be “heteroflexible” ;) But my goddd, male models really make me feel like shit sometimes, okay most of the time but it’s hard to back away from something sooo beautifulllllllll. haahaahah well I did get new boots and they’re 5 1/2 inches will make me 6’2” 1/2 which I’m really really super duper exited about!!!!!!! MALE MODEL HEIGHT TEASE!!!!!!

But you know, makeup and photoshop go a really long way so it’s okay because I know that most of those boys don’t look perfect every single minute of their life. BUT FOR MEE, I find it excruciatingly painfully to try to pry away from those gorgeous, sharp cheekbones, severe jawlines, pale, alabaster skin, siiiigggggghhhhhhhhh

Fashion is such a strange world, but it’s my utopiaaaaaaa


I love fashion.
Love it. I scoff when people make fun of outrageous outfits, things like Louis Vuitton bunny ears or really high heels, and totally crazy shapes. I also used to scoff when people remarked how skinny or thin fashion models are.
And to a certain degree, I’m still annoyed when people make generalizations like this. There are plenty of people out there who are naturally thin and tall, like many fashion models. However, I’ve lately realized that there are some models out there that are just not okay. Beyond whether or not the individual models themselves are unhealthy or have an eating disorder, I question if it’s okay to cast such models for jobs because of the image they set out, and the notion that it’s okay to look like this for the sake of fashion.

Obviously, this is a very huge and serious issue and I can’t cover everything about the topic in one simple blog entry, but I’m just giving a gist of what I think.

I’m going to share this with you:
A BMI (body mass index) of 17.5 on the runway is considered “big”.
That is absolutely horrifying.
Generally, a BMI of 18.5 and under is considered underweight.


Apparently science has created a synthetic cell that can speak. And it has one thing to say and its to GOD.

“‘I cannot believe that God would be so irresponsible,’ said the synthetic cell, ‘creation is clearly a matter for scientists. This God guy should butt out and learn to accept His place in the grand scheme of things.’”

So the people of god say that the science world is playing god when they try to develop new cells. Now that, that cell has been created the cell says that god is playing science. what a trip. I honestly think that some person who doesn’t believe in a higher being and took the interpretations of some power hungry popes, priests, or sermon or whatever has now attempted to fight the religous


It’s almost Thanksgiving, almost Christmas, and almost the end of the semester. I have to admit I really enjoyed my first semester at school. There were some drawbacks but you can’t always get everything. I can’t believe 2011 is almost over and we’re about to enter the last year till the world ends? 2012 sounds like it’s going to be a very interesting and I’m pretty excited. In the meantime, it’s crunch time for everyone who’s in school working on their final projects and papers, looking forward till the end, for the well deserved one month break that we all are starving for.

I’m actually surprised that for my first semester, taking 4 classes, it wasn’t as overwhelming as I assumed it would be, but then again nothing is really. My Sex and Gender in American Society has changed my life completely, I know sounds cliche and weird, but I really feel like I was blind before this class and now I have a brand new pair of glasses. For my final project, I’m doing a presentation on how advertising and the fashion industry is so glamorous and beautiful, but why do we find these images beautiful when there are violent and/or overtly sexual images.

Now I’m not being a hypocrite, I love fashion and every aspect of it but sometimes I ask myself, “why do I feel this way?”, “What is drawing me in?”, “What messages are these images conveying?”. In this Calvin Klein ad, it looks pretty hot at first glance but then if you look at it longer, you see this helpless, thin girl that’s looks like she’s about to be gang banged.

Here you see Dakota Fanning looking like a really young girl with her pink dress and pink background giving a sense of innocence and purity. Then she has a flower right above her crotch, looks like child pornography? Trying to “deflower” this little girl?

Fashion has a lot of involvement with sex, it always has since the beginning of advertising, and it seems to just be growing and growing, and what i wanted to figure out was why? What is causing this and why are we letting this still happen?


Well, well, I’m years old today and I don’t know what to feel like. I usually despise birthdays because I don’t want to get old but this year I’m kind of like, “ehhhhh…” I want to get makeup and magazines, and clothes, SHOPPING. I’ve got to go to MAC and get some stuff, beautyyyy, beautyyy!! I need more beauty. RIDICULOUS. Birthdays are so weird, I feel nothing, yet inside I feel I should acting like a 7-year-old all giddy. I am excited to eat sushi though, I love sushi, I wish I could eat sushi everyday at a sushi boat restaurant, UGHH by the way, sushiboat places make great spots for first dates, just to leat you know ;)

OMG There’s a really, really cute guy who works at Marc By Marc Jacobs in Fillmore and he is seriously soooo beautiful. I have such a fatty acid crush on him but I’m too scared to be assertive. Besides, is it weird hitting on someone when they’re working? Damn, I always have to admire from a far, hahaha, ohh unrequited love. I just read some Sappho poetry for one of my classes and I don’t feel that alone and pathetic anymore, hahaha

I hope that this year will be fun and full of good, unexpected surprises, yes cliché, but I like cliché things, some of them at least. I have so many places I want to go tomorrow but I don’t know if I’ll be able to fulfill my wishes. I can’t wait for my cake, I love cake so much I feel like Marie Antoinette every time I eat dessert :D yeah